staying focused

my blog died....so did my poker game.....i havent posted in so long cauz i lost all focus for the game......i got lazy and expected the game to just come to me and forgot what it took for me to get where i was in the 1st place....HARD WORK.....i also learned something about me as a person....i noticed when im winning im less inclined to play then when im losing.....pretty much the complete opposite for the average person.....however im a fighter so when losing i dig deeper while when winning i let up cauz theres less to fight for....ive now realized how to stay focused at all times of my poker career......lookout online poker world youngguns back and planning on big things from here on out.....

i will update my blogs much more frequently.....even tho pretty much nobodys gonna read this haha it feels good to write and and let my mind be heard

Always Learning! Ever After!

(always learning!) It's been about a month since my last post but i'm lazy as shit so work with me. It's been about 6 weeks since my big score in the fulltilt 750k, since then ive learned alot as i normally do cauz im always looking to improve as a poker player and more importantly as a person. I've learned to understand my aggression better late in tournaments and how much variance big buy in online tournament poker can have. I haven't lost alot but ive about broke even in tournaments since the 750k. Although I've made 3 final tables and had a 14th place finish in the sunday mulligan all my final tables saw early exits for me so small wins at best. I've recently started playing 5/10nl cash games a few times a week and am having fantastic results so thats always a plus. I can happily say that now that I have money I haven't changed as a person one bit which in my opinion is more important than anything, also i've given a good bit back to the people who supported me, whether it me buying rounds at jacks bar on the weekends or helping my mom out financially it feels good to give back.

(ever after!) so two of my best friends are in a band and recently finished their 1st album which ive been listening too in my car. One song is titled "Ever After", the meaning behind the song is youll find happiness when u let go of fear, i love those lyrics so much. I see so many people scared to be what they wanna be so they play it safe and get a safe secure job. Don't get me wrong theres nothing wrong at all with getting a good job but do it cauz u wanna do it not cauz everyone else says you should.(congrats bobbo fuck all your haters!) Whatever you wanna be in life be it! Don't let anybody make you feel like you can't have what you want. Find something your truely passionate about and give it all you got, if you give up hope then you got no shot at all so what the hell do you got to lose. (check out "Alive in the underground" on myspace. they are the shit you won't be dissapointed.)
"In life failure is our deepest fear, therefore all but a select few dare to fail while those who dare to fail are the ones all look up to."

peace, younggun03

hey mom im gonna gamble for a living!

so picture this, ur only son whom youv raised as a single mother and did everything possible to make his life easier, struggled finanically so he was better off, and always put him before urself never graduates high school(extremely stupid mistake of mine) then proceeds to tell you that he is gonna gamble for a living(poker of coarse haha). most parents would smack the shit out of their child and say u cant gamble for a living and ur going to school. however for some reason my mother never did that, even tho she didnt agree with my decisions she stood behind me all the way, for one of my birthdays she actually gave me 50 bucks in an envelope labeled poker funds haha. She trusted my thoughts and beliefs even tho she didnt understand all of them. She knew i was a smart and guided kid that never gave up on what he wanted. I guess she knew she raised me to REACH FOR THE STARS and figured thats what i was doing. I dunno but whatever the reason thanks mom. the next time someone gives u a hard time about playing poker dont get upset like i used to because most just dont understand how it works.
younggun03

1st post. quick catch up on my background

as my first post the reason im creating this blog is so people can follow my progress up the poker ladder and to give some feedback to players who are aspiring to play for a living as well. When i was grinding the lowest stakes available i always wanted to read players blogs and posts to learn and get better so i feel i should show some love and give back to the poker community. Aside from all that ill give u a quick catch up of my poker career up to this point. I started playing when i was in high school like everyone else becauz of mr. moneymaker and the poker boom. I learned quickly and consistantly won but never had any bankroll skills. Therefore i consistantly went broke, ive prob went broke over a 100 times haha. In August of 07 i finally exercised money management and never have had to redeposit again after the $450 i put on the site. I grinded the small stakes while working at a grocery store near my home(funny thing is Luke "IWEARGOGGLES" Staudenmaier worked there with me, haha), and no grocery stores dont produced great poker players haha, in april of 08 i quit there cauz i couldnt stand it and was promised a good job with a union which never panned out, my plans at the time was to take that job and keep building my bankroll, however i was quickly thrown into the rough world of playing poker for a living. I grinded 50nl for almost a yr before i switched to tournaments. I made about 10,300 at 50nl so not a great income by any means, plus the fact that u have to cashout every month to pay the bills u can imagine how hard it is to build a roll. However i found tournaments to be alot funner and my aggressive balls to the wall approach worked better for them. i played small and mid stakes tourneys on fulltilt for the next couple months earning roughly 3 grand a month. I knew it would take a big score in a Sunday event b4 i could consistantly make big money. In the 1st week of april of 09 I won a satellite into the 750k on fulltilt which i placed 5th in for 32,180, all the hard work paid off and it feels good to stand tall after a big score. I know this post was probly pretty boring but i wanted to let everyone get a feel for my background. thanx alot

younggun03